haiz

Think it's time to MOVE ON! When I said it as moving on means it's time to QUIT!!! Sigh! I need sunshine in my life...
Post heartache..I don't feel like standing up again straightly..haiz just gotten a rejection sigh! Sigh! I still can't pick up myself...am I badly hurt? Until I don't feel like talking to her...
Haiz..haiz... Do u knoe..when a thing is already broken into pieces, it will impossibly back to its original condition..even glue can't help it..what to do?
Not that I don't want to restore the relationship, it's just very hard for me to drag myself into it again...there was too much heartache....haiz...

Tonite looking for job! Must start tonite!! Renew the resume!! Start sending out resume!!
Gogogo elis! Time to move on!!

my deepest feeling....i dont like u....

if you want why rite at the start u offered it to me....if you want why dont u just take it and never let me even have a thought of it....i simply hate it....i know you have more charms than me, you are prettier than me...you have a lot lot of secret admirer whereas i dont have any at all...i know it....enough playing with me...it's no longer fun....u win! i admit...i cant beat u...i know....

haiz....haiz....yea yea u are the one always get replied....it's ok but cant u just dont check me out? i will give it to u...pls pls take them away...i'm ok!! argh seems everything is taken away by her if she's with me!! haiz!!!!!! dont like it!!! go away!

Late nite..my heart troubling me so much..
I was so hurt before.. And seems that when I get hurt, it's hard for me to forget it..I can forgive and let things fade away but I still have scar left behind..scar that makes me so afraid that same things will happen again...
It's not that I don't want to have bf..just that I don't want to fight with my friend bcoz of guys..
but if so far till now I'm still silent, it doesn't mean that I'm ok with it!
I'm hurt..even till now..and I don't want it to be repeated again and again..
it's not that I don't want him or other guys..just that I'm so afraid I'll get hurt again if they choose her than me...
it's so painful..but till when I'll keep silent myself and pretend that I'm ok..
until when I can act like nothing happen if the fact is my heart hurts me so much?
Girl, u are so fake..just said it out all ur heartache..but she's just so thick skin that she don't care anything with my feeling..
Maybe bcoz my acting is acted so well till she thinks that I'm ok? Hey girl wake up!! I'm also human I still have heart!!

Amazed with myself.. I can just hide all my feeling behind..all problems in my family etc I also never share it to other..
Man..I'm so strong..but hey don't u knoe...I'm fragile inside! my heart hurts easily..and it's hard to be recovered as the scars are hardly removed..

God..what should I do? I'm so hurt..I can't simply erase everything..
Again I think I'm gonna just let go him and find other guy that she don't know..
Ok it's alrite..you are gonna be good and alrite!!

I lift up all my feeling to u God..let me handle myself well..and I believe You'll help me bring peace and joy for my fam..

Good nite God...have a sweet dream to myself..

dont practice self-critism

1John3:20b

For God is greater than our worried hearts
and He knows more about us than we do ourselves.

true...

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keeps You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing.

Yeah..it's true indeed.. That's the sweet-bitter part of life ;))

jealousy.................will bring you nowhere...

Guys…I’ve gotten a job… Started my first day working on 5th Oct 2009 at UNI Strategic. It was quite great the feeling of finally having a job. However, my job is sucks…I din believe in myself to be able to excel in this job. But…I need money and for sure I WILL excel in this job and got great salary!

Really God, please, not my way but Yours be done. I have my heart broken again. This is quite severe happened in these past few weeks. Seems like everything of mine was taken away by her. I am jealous to her. Help me to be not jealous. Help me please. The guy that I liked, likes her so much. My tuition student was taken away voluntarily by me, stupid me, but I will NEVER regret everything I’ve decided in my life. I referred job to her and she got the better one at the same company with the much much higher pay. I am glad too she finally got her job just that don’t be in the same company and have higher pay pls. This is so heart breaking. Until when everything will be turn wrong to me. Am I the one that caused it by my ownself? I am the one that refer the job to her and now am I regret to do it? honestly, I’m partly regret of doing that. Tell me wicked tell me bad but I’m still human. Gosh. This is so frustating. I received 2 rejection letters from Unilever and Pathlight (Autism school) at the same time she received her job offer letters. Gosh…. This is really a mean coincidence… Wake up Elis, don’t ever give up , storm may seem so hard, heartache may always be there, believing God is there and He is there no matter how far he may seem…. Gosh………….this unfairness is so painful….. She is bragging in my room now!!! and she’s said that she’s not overjoy!!!!! HAIZ!!! sabar sabar….God help me control things that are uncontrollable… Must find other job soon..God oh God who I am without You, don’t desert me please. No, I will never regret with my decision. God Himself that gives us the POWER to get wealth. Nothing can be happened unless it’s permitted by God. I will keep my mouth shut. Keep it in my heart. Only me and Him know it. I know God is testing my character. It’s ok to have less salary. Must awaken myself and use my own talent and ability to the max to get the commission. It’s ok to get less salary, I must start to be confident by my own, independent, and grab the deals. Nothing is ever impossible Elis! I am POSSIBLE!! Elis stand up!!! stand UP!!! U CAN!! if God is with you, who shall against you!!!! The path of the just is like shining sun, shines ever BRIGHTER unto the perfect day!! JIAYOU Elis!!

Come what may~ I believe when God allows it to be happened in my life, there’s something God wants to change in my character. Mold me as Your clay…Forgive me for being jealous etc, I am just Elis, human being too, full of sins as well. I TRUST in You… Yes.. I TRUST in you… Come what may~~ You will be always with me in sunshine and rain…

Love this video so much…check it out~

Everyone has a dream, even Down-Syndrome kids do too………Don’t give up!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_-P4t2jR1g
I am proud of, my whole life. I am proud of what I am, today.

Dare to Live Elis! Vivere!

Try looking at tomorrow not yesterday
And all the things you left behind
All those tender words you did not say
The gentle touch you couldn't find

In these days of nameless faces
There is no one truth but only pieces
My life is all i have to give

Dare to live until the very last
Dare to live forget about the past
Dare to live giving something of yourself to others
Even when it seems there's nothing more left to give

Ma se tu vedessi l'uomo
Davanti al tuo portone
Che dorme avvolto in un cartone,
Se tu ascoltassi il mondo una mattina
Senza il rumore della pioggia,
Tu che puoi creare con la tua voce,
Tu, pensi i pensieri della gente,
Poi, di Dio c'e solo Dio.

Vivere, nessuno mai ce l'ha insegnato,
Vivere, non si può vivere senza passato,
Vivere è bello anche se non l'hai chiesto mai,
Una canzone ci sarà, qualcuno che la canterà

Dare to live searching for the ones you love
(Perché, perché, perché, perché non vivi questa sera?)
Dare to live no one but we all
(Perché, perché, perché, perché non vivi ora?)
Dare to live until the very last
(Perché, perché, perché la vita non è vita)
Your life is all you have to give (Perché)
non l'hai vissuta
Vivere!

Dare to live until the very last
(Perché, perché, perché Ia vita non è vita)
Your life is all you have to give (Perché)
non l'hai vissuta mai

I will say no (I will say yes)
Say dare to live
Dare to live